refreshed.

i have been in a mood lately. a strange one. 

and i feel like it comes on about this time each year. {except for last year when i was probably too consumed with ONE thing that i didn't notice it nor did i have time - or want to have time - to acknowledge it.}

my life needs some change. but i'm not just talking outwardly - like the i need to clean more & be more organized stuff... there have been things going on inside me. things that i can't put into words. things that only my spirit can testify to. prayers beginning to be answered. hearts changing. new relationships building. older ones flourishing. and so on and so on. 

last week i was tired & i felt like dry bones. as if i hadn't seen the Lord's hand move in a big way in a while. that although i knew He was there, i didn't feel Him, and i didn't like it. whaaaa whaaa.....

i began praying.... as in, on my knees before Him in the morning {with my coffee right beside me, of course}... that He would move. that He would place things & people & ideas on my heart. that He would breathe a fresh wind into my faith. that He would inspire me. 

and this week - well - i'm still tired. BUT i feel like i'm beginning to see things in a fresh way. there are certain things & ideas & people that are starting to stand out - and i don't think that's a coinscidence - it's a Holy Echo that He is starting to build in my life. 

and i am ever so grateful. there is nothing, NOTHING, Y'ALL, that is like experiencing the Presence of the Lord in your life.

i started reading in john this week - our bf teacher put that in my ear on sunday morning and i thought it might be refreshing to change it up from my love of Jesus Calling for Lent. {yes, i go to a baptist church and i just said "lent!"} and the first day i was reading and this passage caught me dead in my tracks.

a little background: Jesus was gathering the twelve and when he saw Nathanael coming to Him, Jesus said "an Israelite in whom there is no deceit!" indicating that he knew who he was. Nathanael's response was to ask how Jesus knew who he was and, of course, Jesus said "i saw you under the fig tree". {all of that is a paraphrase!}  and then Nathanael exclaimed, "surely You are the King of Israel!" in which our Lord said the following: 

 "you will see greater things than these."

it struck me. that's what happens when you read the Living Word. it reminded me that i keep looking back at all He has done for us - halfway expecting that to be the highlight of my christian walk during my lifetime. the way that He delivered us, and carried us over the last year. the way i literally saw things happen daily that were only explained through Him. 

and, i think it's very biblical to remember and keep an account of God's faithfulness, but i felt like yesterday Jesus whispered to me - you haven't seen anything yet.

done. peace out. i am officially refreshed.

"great things" are relative.  great for me, right now, is a heart change as to the way i look at those people & circumstances that surround me. where is He? what is He doing? where does He want me to focus? in a bible study i did years ago, i learned that we aren't to choose what we're going to do and ask God to bless it - but we are to see where He is already working and JOIN HIM. yes, Jesus. let me join You - I want to see and experience the great things that You are doing. here i am, Lord. send me.

so the question is: where is He pointing you??